“You Have CPTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)”
As I continue this “healing” journey, I have learned some pretty incredible lessons and have been greatly educated, not only about different effects of trauma, but even more so about myself and how my behaviors, no matter what I have gone through in life, are not ok at times. Although incredibly hard things have happened in my life (as in everyone’s), it is up to me, and ONLY me to not be a victim. To not continue a cycle of trauma and the effects it can have on not only me, but on people in my life because of how I can let it affect me, which in turn, negatively can affect them. I have had so many learning curves, but the biggest one has happened the last three years of my life…being in a healthy relationship. No ulterior motives. No need to be a detective. Believing things for face value. Actually being loved. Genuinely, authentically, whole-heartedly loved. I have never had that in this type of a relationship, until now. As silly as it may seem, I don’t know how to be loved. It...
